it has been nearly five years since we lost our third child.
oh sweet babe we never held.
such grief i had never known.
and i would have been 20 weeks pregnant this week with our fifth.
this pain is fresh still and my arms ache knowing we won't hold you here either.
the grief remains. i don't expect it to leave. it is part of my story. but it does not crowd out the goodness. it is less of a weed and more of a wildflower. my life is not less joyful because of grief. in fact, i experience joy more fully knowing sorrow.
candles were lit tonight in remembrance of our two babes.
and i know so many others who long for that day of reuniting.
i remember them with you.
until then, let us choose joy blooming as a wildflower in our heart-gardens, remembering our babes today and everyday.
i am joining the nester and will be blogging every single day in october!
full list of posts here.