the problem is this strong sense of anxiety and inadequacy. its like all of a sudden i not only can't do some things, but i can't do anything. what is up with that? i am completely drained by this defeated attitude. i think i need to stop doing and start being. i am in need of rest. not the kind where i take a vacation and kick up my feet by a pool (umm, but that would be nice.). but the kind where i stop trying to take the lead. where i stop trying to make a bunch of plans. where i stop depending on myself.
my prayer is that i would rest in my place as a child of God. that i would just be His daughter.
where is He leading that i can follow?
what are His plans that i can join?
how can i depend on Him?so i want to say i will be finding a new rhythm soon. one that works with my limitations, abilities, weaknesses, and strengths. but finding is another way of doing. so instead i will (try to) step back and get out of His way. i am pretty sure God has amazing things to show me.
are you following His path? or finding your own? let's encourage each other in just being.